Year One

Long time no talk, friends. I can't even say I had a really hard finals week, seeing as I only had one normal, conventional test. The rest of my finals were either online, a presentation, or doing a few yoga poses. I'm finally going home tonight, and I'm excited to be home with my family for the holidays.

I wasn't going to do this post, simply because I didn't think it was worthwhile for anyone to read. But to be honest, it's worthwhile for me to write it.

I was accepted to transfer to FIT a year ago last week. I couldn't believe it when I read that it's only been a year. I feel like I've been here forever; even my friends think I have seeing as they all looked at me weird when I said this was my first Christmas season here. This past year has been the most incredible, uplifting, motivating, exciting year of my life. Before I got to New York City, if you told me all the things I've done since, I wouldn't believe you.

I wouldn't believe you if you told me I adore my professors, I've met some of the most interesting people, I've met all my favorite bloggers, so on and so forth. I really wouldn't believe you if you told me I would have finished my first in house internship with Rebecca Minkoff. Long story short, I've grown so much career and education wise. I've gotten the chance to attend so many CF events and be apart of some amazing campaigns. I've expanded my ideas, my network, and most importantly my closet. Being surrounded by such influential people on the streets, in class, and at my internship I've changed the way I see fashion and how I interpret basically everything. I'm so much more interested in my classes and the fashion industry as a whole. A year ago I barely knew what a creative director did, now I can name each one at my favorite brands and their influence on the company. I also think it goes without saying that the city has made me unafraid to try new outfits. Everyone's wearing something crazy, boring, or normal. No one will look twice at you if you're wearing a tutu or six inch heels at 12pm. That's what I love about this city, and that's why I came here.

The city itself has calmed me. I'm sure that makes no sense when you first read it, but it really has. I had crippling anxiety my freshman year of college, which carried over to the beginning of sophomore year. I was really scared to travel alone and I always worried about people around me and what they might do. The city is so loud, chaotic, and you see some really strange things. After a few weeks of living here I understood that there's always going to be someone within two feet of you, there's no such thing as personal space, and truly the city never sleeps. There's just something about the hustle and bustle that made me more confident in myself, I don't fear the things I used to fear while walking down the street at 10:30 at night, etc. The city might scare some people, but it's really not a scary place.  Penn Station during rush hour, now that's a scary place.

If there's anything I want readers to take away from this post it's that a year can really make a difference. You might think nothing will get better, or nothing will change, or you're stuck; but if you take the first step towards something you want, change can happen. Never feel like you can't make your life what you want it to be - baby steps still count in the grand scheme of things.

As for next semester, I don't plan to stop expanding and growing; I'm constantly setting new goals for myself. My plan for now is to work instead of intern, probably at Madewell or I was thinking maybe Urban Outfitters. If you haven't heard, I'm going to be returning to College Fashionista as a contributing beauty editor, so that'll take up quite a bit of my time. I'm excited to move forward and continue doing what I love. This past year has been nothing but amazing and I'm so thankful for everyone who believed in me when I planned to take on this huge endeavor.

Okay, done being mushy. Back to scheduled posts starting this week!

1 comment

  1. YAY Shelby! I had no idea you'd only been there for a year. Sounds like an incredible year and I know 2017 will be even better!!